Last night I hung out with a couple of my guy friends. I’ve mentioned two of the three on here. It was Arrow, Richard and another friend. Me and this other friend go to group together so we grabbed lunch after that and then later we headed downtown to meet Arrow and Richard. I got dressed up, makeup and all, and had a blast. Of course, if I hadn’t had guy friends with me I wouldn’t have gone out nor dressed up. But I wanted to dress up. We were going to my favorite place for dinner. It’s a hibachi place and the food is amazing there!
Then today me and the friend that goes to group went to see Kingsman. There was some camera stuff I didn’t like, but as a writer, I liked certain things. There were moments were it seemed a bit childish, but then there were more serious moments. Overall a pretty good film. Definitely entertaining!
Having a great weekend so far! Now time to do homework
I ended up hanging out with Arrow after spending the day with my mom. Arrow and I hung out downtown and he bought me a drink and we just hung out in my car until Quick Silver called me to let me know that he was home from set. I had asked Quick Silver if he could keep my lighters and safety pins so I wouldn’t have anything to self-harm with if I had the urge, and he said sure.
So after Arrow and I hung out I went to Quick Silvers and we hung out until 3 am, hence why I was so tired this morning. I gave him a rose that me and my mom got at the movies since I already had a bunch of white roses at my place and didn’t need another one. We talked for like three hours, and it was good stuff, or memories, or things we liked, etc. I even asked if I could have one of his graphic designs printed out. He offered to design something new, but we never really discussed what. Also because I am into psychology and criminology he asked me if I profiled or analyzed those around me, which I said, “No freaking duh.” So he asked me to give him his profile. I did, and the only thing that shocked him was that I said that I thought he was protective. I told him I got the protective vibe from him, and I gave him examples and he saw it once I mentioned it. He said he hasn’t been protective of anyone since his one friend in high school, so it didn’t cross his mind. I asked him to give me my profile, but it was too late, so he will tell me another day. When I handed over my seven lighters and three safety pins I told him not to lose them and that he was holding onto them until I was ready to be around them again. He said, he was keeping them until he could trust me with them, and if I did self harm with them after he gives them back that he will take them and destroy them. Some might think there is a fault in this plan, like “She can just go buy more lighters/safety pins.” Well, I wouldn’t because the ones Quick Silver has are sentimental and for some reason those are the only ones I’d use to self-harm. Quick Silver gave me a hug goodnight and we parted ways. I am glad I can trust someone. I know that I’ve probably mentioned that even though Quick Silver and Andy said they were my friends, I never really felt it. Well, the other night when Andy took me through the trauma, and Quick Silver got me to open up and be honest, I felt genuine care. I felt like they really were my friends and not just putting up with me. That’s the moment I felt like we were friends.
Yesterday my friend who we’ll call Arrow, auditioned for my film and after that we hung out. We grabbed dinner, talked, and just had fun. We talked about Valentine’s day and said if both of us didn’t have a valentine we would be each other’s valentine. Lame but sweet. He might be out of town on Valentine’s and he said if that happened we could hang out on sunday instead.
It’s sweet. He gets it. Being alone on valentine’s isn’t fun, so why not find another single friend and spend valentine’s with them? Seems legit.
I don’t really have any girl friends who are single or free, so I guess Ethan’s friend Arrow will be okay. We are just friends, and that’s nice. No freaking pressure. I also told him about Owen and what happened, but I made it sound light, so it seemed like it wasn’t a big deal. We also talked about Ethan a lot which did upset me at times to hear certain things. But I can’t change that fact that Ethan doesn’t know how to be loyal, or he is just not good at being loyal.