I called Renfrew today to let them know I’m not coming back. I left a voicemail so I’ll get a call later today from them asking for an explanation probably.
Also last night sucked. I asked my mom to make me pasta, and well she made dinner for everyone else but me. Cody had to make me pasta after he found me crying. I also called my sister last night, and that was bad. See when growing up my mom would often forget to feed me, especially the carb part of the dinner. And once I knew I had anorexia my sister really stood up to my mom and told her that I needed carbs as much as any other food.
So I called her and asked how she was doing but she could tell I was crying and I told her mom was being mom. I proceeded to ask again what was going on with her. She then said the only reason she answered my call was to make sure no one died in my family and hung up on me.
That’s when I really cried and Cody came over and he made me food after I told him what happened.
Today has been better. I went to therapy and talked about it. When I got home I found out that Luvas got outside and I almost had a panic attack. He has gotten outside before and will often just hide in the bushes near the door and cry until I pick him up by the scruff and put him back in, but he had gotten out while I was out. My mom and I went outside and searched around the house. He was in the backyard hiding in the bushes near the bird feeder. When he heard me calling his name he started crying and that’s how I found him.
I was so scared. I noticed when he was inside that his eye was irritated because he kept it more shut than the other. Now I am hoping that he doesn’t have an infection or something. Luvas is supposed to be an indoor cat because I know I’m not going to be living in my parents house forever with a nice yard. When Cody and I move out to an apartment Luvas won’t be able to go outside because we won’t have a yard, not until Cody and I move into a house or something which would be years down the line, so I don’t want Luvas getting used to going outside when I know he won’t be able to when Cody and I eventually move out.
I am hoping that the rest of the week isn’t too hectic. We ended up having brunch yesterday with Cody’s dad, sister, and brother. That was really nice and tomorrow Cody and me are meeting his mom for happy hour. I’m really excited about that because I really like Cody’s mom!
Hope everyone has a good week! 🙂
Honestly it’s tiring. I am having fun exploring the part of Florida I’m in, but at the same time it’s just so tiring to go from one apartment to the next trying to find the right price and a place that’s good enough for Luvas, Sui, and I. My mom and I are going to two places tomorrow and one really looks promising I think, but we will see. I’m really hoping for something good! I’m really excited to be having a new start.
I’ll be a last semester sophomore when I start, and I am debating on joining a sorority. Anyone who knows me in real life would be stunned that I’m saying that. I’m thinking it could be a good way to make friends since I’ll be living off campus. I have to do my research though about the sororities.
My dad and I made the 14 hour drive home in one day. We got home around 11:30 last night. It was long and exhausting! Also I had a fever today so my cold is still here and that’s been sucky. Luvas and our youngest cat, Tempe, have interacted since we’ve been home. They seem to tolerate each other and interact pretty well. My cat, Soleil, doesn’t even know Luvas is here. Pearl and Lorenzo know Luvas is here but aren’t fond yet. It always takes adjusting when adding a new animal to the house.
I am now home and bored. I have to start going to therapy, and looking into treatments for PTSD. I also have to visit the colleges I’ve gotten into so I can make my choice on where I’m going to be going to school. There’s so much to do and I just want it all done now so I don’t have to worry. But all of what I’ve mentioned will take a couple weeks to get sorted out.
I am not good with transitions and changes, so hopefully I don’t get down while I’m at home.
Luvas, sitting at the bottom of my chair while I watch TV. He is always near me if I’m home. I’m really nervous about having to bring him home because of the other cats and our dog. Plus, if I go to a treatment center, I’ll have to leave him at home…
So I uploaded a video to youtube of Luvas being adorable! Thought I would share. It’s adorable because I didn’t teach him to do that but every time I put the toy in the chair he does that and takes it to my room.
Skipped my 11 o’clock to study for my detectives midterm later. So far it’s been going slowly. I hate it when you start to memorize the note cards and there’s this huge pile of cards that you don’t know and a small cards of things you do know. It’s daunting. I’m also going to either re-read some of the stories or skim them to refresh my memory.
Luvas was being the cutest this morning! He was chasing his tail. I wish I knew how to put a video on here from my phone.
But I haven’t had to really study for an official midterm since my freshman year of college since most of my classes have been more on the creative side. I forgot how much time goes into studying and how annoying it can be. I now can understand how my sister last semester hated midterms and finals.
So today I went and got a cat named Luvas.
So happy! He is shy and sweet. Loves to cuddle.